If i had more time

If I had more time I guess I would be on here blogging about nothing in particular a little more...It has been a month almost to the day that I last blogged....with Christmas shopping...doctors..pt.,dentists and all the last minute things you have to fit in...my days are filled..

Last week a nice guy I worked with for over 20 years passed away and the funeral home was filled mostly with his co-workers..so sad...he was 61...was sick for two years so he didnt even get to enjoy any kind of retirement days at all...just never know from one day to the next what you are up against..

Now,my knee is another story...This is the last week of physical therapy I have and only two days at that...I guess they decided that 110 was a good stopping point for my flex but it was up to 116 ...After having that dreaded manipulation that was really no pain with it at all when i had it done...It was just the ordeal of having to be hooked up to iv's and being put back under AGAIN..There was no pain to the knee afterwards,,,I could just bend it more..The knee still stays sore at times especially if i walk a lot on it or am up on it longer then what I should be...but try staying off a leg that you are suppose to but can't find the time to especially with the holidays,,,right,,...I'd like to see the person who can...always and too much to do...then......in between all my runnings with my knee in the last month,,,my blood pressure decided it wanted to give me a little trouble to go along with my knee so I have now added blood pressure medicine to my list of meds especially Right now after I had to spend 8 hours in the emergency room because my blood pressure was so high..,,,i have to record it morning ,noon and night to see if it stays regulated or whatever....joy,,joy,,joy...another glorious thing to have to take time with...of course it could be worse..I could be under the ground instead of above it...

Within the last couple weeks..well actually a week ago Sunday,,,I got over being a scrooge this year and put up a tree and decorated the screened in porch..for the sake of the little ones if nothing else...Christmas just isnt Christmas without a tree no matter how big a pain in the butt it is to drag out all the Christmas boxes..and nothing is ever put together that you want to use..so boxes are everywhere..and i got tired of dragging out so my decorating is kind of skimpy this year...it amazes me when we were driving around looking at lights how people can keep theirs up and lit.I guess i may try for more next year...by then i will have a year in on this knee and maybe i can get in the mood more..

Now,,my tree is up..to say the least...oh my goodness..talk about an ugly tree....Usually I string the lights and the tinsel and the strings of whatever and let the kids put the decorations on..well...to say the least they did and this is a child decorated tree..two seven year olds and a 4 year old to be exact,,,this year they could finally read the decorations and see which ornaments were theres from over the years..They have one or two new ones each year,,,then,,they decided that the ones they found that they liked that didnt have a name on them..they just claimed them and wrote their name on them and ...then they added them to the tree..IN CLUMPS...Now..do you think my tree has to be perfect..no sirree..Its not even fully decorated,just as far as they could reach and only in the front so thats how i left it..I did throw a few decorations on the top but still didnt cover the top...and thats the way its going to be left.At least for this Christmas....Looks aren't everything,,at least in my house...and i'm sure Santa could care less either way..

The girls were down this weekend and I gave the three little ones a gift to open and told them i would let them open one this Sunday..It kept them all entertained for the first couple hours anyway...Last night we took the seven year old to a town about 40 minutes from here to watch a movie...They have this theater with 10 movies running and it only cost 4 dollars to get in...so for less then 20 dollars three of us went and had drinks and the biggest popcorn they had and watched the movie..not bad..with the prices these days..there was closer theaters but 12-14 dollars a piece to get in...And what did we watch but A Christmas Carol.It sure wasnt my favorite movie...I'm glad I finally did set and watch it but some movies I do like to watch over..this would definitely not be one of them.I thought this one would never end and it is not one i would even consider watching over..I would much rather watch Its a Wonderful Life,or Rudolph or Frosty,,,but I survived it.

The weather here is as uncertain as the rest of us..last thursday week,,it was so bonechillling cold...the neighbor lady and i run all day shopping and ate out and we froze to death with the wind chill factor being near zero..and four days later it is 58,,It is suppose to start turning colder by tomorrow...I cant wait for these glorious days to hit..again...Oh well..it is December and we havent had any cold weather to complain about..but look out january and february.Well..it is now Wednesday nite and I still havent gotten this on my blog site....I wrapped presents last nite and still have a lot more to wrap....Try for tomorrow..I had a full day in town today...was at the school til noon...pt in the afternoon..hit a few stores then i was on my way home.I hate running in cold weather...thank goodness for my electric start..Its a lot nicer getting into a warm car...yessirree....ok..i'm outta here for who knows how long..later

eight weeks gone....

It is hard to believe at times that is has been eight weeks today since i have had this blasted , pain in the butt knee surgery..I will fore go the picture because it hasn't gotten any better looking..still the same ol pancake look...and I cant believe even more that I cant even get on this computer ...maybe its because I spend more time in town then in the country....and if I take the 7 year old to school then its 4 p.m. or after before I get home..as today was...we left at about 7;30 this morning and got home a little after dark,,,I dropped the two brothers off to school this morning...hit physical therapy for my knee til 11 then preceded on to the grade school and ate lunch with my gr-daughter til noon then checked out an army surplus store trying to find the 7 year old an army outfit for Christmas..I think I have finished buying for my gr-girls...They are getting a WII from Santa and I bought games for it....so an easy $150.00 bucks went for these this week...Now,,if I had the nieces and nephews bought for ..then I could say I am done...I picked up the boys from school at three...picked up a pizza ,,,we had pizza at the park and they played til dark ,,then we played dodge the deer all the way home...These deer appear out of nowhere...and all the time..I have never hit a deer...well..I tigged one years ago...he went down but got up and took off again...or maybe it was a she..whatever....

I go to the leg doctor for my check up on my knee Monday...I talked to a lady this week that had surgery the same day as I did and her and another lady have to go in and have their legs manipulated...My therapist told me they would send a letter to the doctor with me when i go Monday after I leave PT..I done told them not to say I need manipulated because the paper will never make it there if i have to take it...

At this point I am sick of going to town..of PT..and to make matters worse I had to have a root canal done Thursday and have to go next week on another tooth that they don't know whether they can even save or not....I am in town almost every day for PT or an appointment..then because of the total knee replacement I have to be premedicated for any dental work..so more pills to take..fun,fun, fun..Of all the times for my teeth to start falling apart...and this is not a good time...my knee,,my teeth..what next....My La. sis has been complaining about her heel hurting her...well..mine did too..but quit....and that was before I had surgery...so now I'm wondering if that is lurking in the background waiting to reappear as soon as I get off my pain meds...maybe they are keeping it suppressed for the time being.

Thats all I need...heel added and that would be almost like hoof and mouth disease...yukkk..

It has been gorgeous weather this week...In the 60's...and the weekend is suppose to follow suit..I bought a ticket to go to the kids football banquet this Sunday so another weekend is tied up and all have been that way since July....

There was no school this Wednesday so I took the little one to PT with me then we went on over to town to one of the Veterans dedications they were having at one of the parks..It was kind of neat...We watched them fire a cannon three times and after an hour or so we were out of there...The weather was in the high 50's and the sun was warm but a steady little breeze made a jacket come in handy....The little park didn't have too many people there as everyone was in the main park in town to see the parade...a small parade..nothing like the once a year Christmas parade that will be within the next two weeks..usually the Saturday before Thanksgiving.We proceeded to tour the little park..A cabin that soldiers lived in was restored and was being dedicated to the park today..The view from the high hill we was on was spectacular..The sun shining on the river was so pretty and the cities of Parkersburg and Belpre was stunning from the point we were at..I videoed the cannon shooting but it wont play back on this laptop so I cant post it...

..Oh..the holidays are coming way too soon,,and as for me...I guess my Christmas decorations will sit another 11 months in the building because it took me long enough to put them up with two good knees let alone one.I may try putting up a few more lights around if I get around to it...if not ..so be it..Its like my house...If it gets done it will...if not...it ain't going nowhere...

ok,,,I am going to post this tomorrow..It is almost midnight and I should have been in the sack an hour of so ago....finish this tomorrow....

Well,,,I had my eight weeks check up today with the doctor that did my knee surgery and what else can happen..He informed me that I needed to have the manipulation done...I guess all these doctors must look at these knee operations differently...the la. doctor told my sister that 90 was functional and you could live with that so I 'm thinking ...well.thats where mine is at but these W.Va. doctors have different views...So...here i go again..I have a root canal scheduled for Wednesday and Thursday they are going to put me back under and bend or as they call it,,,manipulate my knee..guess where they cut the quadriceps muscle,,,the scar tissue has built up and wont let my leg bend like it is suppose to, so more pain is in store..he said it wont be nothing like the surgery but I'm beginning to think...how would anyone know what the pain is like if you haven't had it done....well...more patient torture for me...but i talked to two other ladies that had their knee done the same day as mine and they have to go in and have theirs done also...and you have to have this done before 90 days or you cant have it done because the scar tissue cannot be broken after that length of time so i might as well have it done and get it over with...then again ..some work..some don't....my knee just doesn't bend like it is suppose to so i guess I'm a candidate for having it done....so me((( the glutton for punishment))) is going to have it done Thursday and get it over with..as bad as I hate too....I"m a wimp when it comes to going under the needle....and I quiver when i pass by a hospital and think of being in one...no thank you...I'd rather be on the outside looking in ,,,on this one...ok..It is Tuesday morning...Eight weeks ago I was in the hospital at this time waiting for the chop chop to begin...Like I told my doctor yesterday,,,no I can't at this time even begin to say that I'm glad I had this done..and I wonder if there will come a time when I will ever say that....I WONDER...I'm like the la. sis...I think ours was done on a different pretense then what other people have had theirs done...they had arthritis so bad and hurt so bad that they had to have theirs done whereas we had ours done because we wore ours out ...so maybe their is a difference ..and these people can honestly say they were glad they had it done..not me..AT LEAST ..NOT YET...ok,,i am going to get this posted..took me three days to get it on here...toodle loo...

heres a video of when they shot the cannon...............if you can see it..

what a Sunday

Blake,,,,the 7 year old...2nd place,

Danny,,,their team won 1st place..

one of my favorite cheerleaders...gracie

wow...how come some days end too fast,,yet others not fast enough.....I started to town a little after nine this morning and got back after dark,,which these days are somewhere around 6 p.m. or so....Today was playoff final for the championships in little league football...The seven year old plays for a team called the Ramblers...There is three age divisions...he plays in the youngest one,,his brother in the next one and then theres the older bracket...so needless to say ,if you stay for both games you are there at least 4-5 hours...All three Ramblers teams made it to the playoffs....The youngest team lost their game, so they came in second...the middle team(((that his brother is on won theirs so they won first.))))the older team lost theirs and they were undefeated all season...oh well..so it goes...The banquet is next Sunday ,,I never have went to a banquet but I scalped a ticket today as the time to put your reservation in was already over and his mom failed to mention it so I lucked upon someone who bought one too many tickets..

Today was a gorgeous November day...The weather was somewhere around 70..Perfect for a day of watching football and sitting in the warm sun...I sat there on hard as rock bleachers all day watching the game and people and thinking about all the things I should be doing at home...Problem is,,,I never would have done those things to be done anyways...Now its after 9p.m and I should be in bed which as soon as I post this post I'm headed that direction....I'm bone tired and my knee is giving me fits..You would think being off of it and sitting there would be easy on it but evidently not...It aches ...Me and the young one sat here watching a movie..I got him ready for bed and he cuddled up on the couch and he was gone in a matter of minutes..All that ball playing got to him...I never expected him to play today as it was a championship game and the coaches are out to win,,,but today they let all the bench sitters play which in his case was good because it would have been a shut out game of 38-0 but the last 7 minutes of the game they put in second string or the bench sitters as i call them and they scored all the touchdowns..3 to be exact...so we were happy..lost the game but we weren't scoreless....

ok...I am tired..should exercise but I'm taking my meds and lying down for the night....maybe my week wont be as hectic but I have therapy Mon,,wed, and Friday ,,then i have a root canal to be done Thursday so my week is already full....and i am outta here...

6 weeks ..a few days..but who

ahhhhhhhh 5 weeks gone

well...I don't know why when i send this pic to the blog site ,,it darkens back up when I lightened it up with the photo editor..have to ask the wizard ...ok..sis how come..

Golly gee,,I cant believe that I haven't blogged since last Wednesday...Where have all the days gone...I'm trying to think what I've been doing that I haven't been on here...last Thursday

is definitely too far back to think what I was doing...I know Friday was a nasty rainy all day rain that lasted til sunset and we decided to take a little trip down the ol highway to the big ol gambling place..needless to say after three hours had gone by we were happy to leave after donating our money once again.One of these days we will figure out that the 79 mile trip to Charleston is just not worth all the time and gas..We don't go with the thought that we are gone to win big.((although it would be nice)))).we just know how much we want to lose and that's it....I only play penny machines cause I love to just play and my money goes further as far as losing it...of course I didn't win nothing big but I did come back with more then I went with...now the man in the house ,,that's a different story ....he plays to win..so naturally he comes home at at loss...a limited loss...cause he only takes so much to lose with.

I'm moving up...My gr-baby says my knee doesn't look like a pancake anymore...It looks like a cut pancake...Don't know whether that is good or bad,,,I just know its been 5 weeks...and its sucks....the sucky part is the pt and the not been able to bend it like you want...I still walk kind of stiff legged and that's my part for not taking my time and bend it when i walk..of course if the swelling would go down it would be a lot easier for my walking and pt...I'm already dreading the trip to pt in the morning,,,especially since it is still swollen and you cant even do the exercises you are suppose to because it hurts so bad...poor poor pitiful me....I guess it could be worse.....but to make things worse...I have a tooth that's been bothering me since last Friday so now I am taking an antibiotic until i can get to the dentist on Thursday....I'm just having a great ol time...

The weekend zoomed by,I guess because I stayed so busy .Sat..I got the great idea of cleaning out the hallway closet..I decided I was going to pull the winter coats and clothes out of the hallway closet and put away all the kids summer and my summer clothes...bad choice on my part...My knee only lets me do so much so here it is Tuesday and I still have things spread everywhere.....Oh well...Sunday was spent at the boys football playoffs then my son and gr-girls came down and spent the latter part of Sunday evening and we were in and out and in and out again playing around...Then comes Monday ..no school..so I had to take the 7 yr old with me to pt and then we went running around in the stores....big mistake on my part..overworking my poor knee...today its sore...ok,,,its going on 8 o'clock...I'm outta here til another post..........toodle loo..........

THEY'RE BACK

Finally,,,,I've got my pj's on ,,,my cold ice pack on my knee and kicked back on the couch....I was on the go from the time my feet hit the floor this morning til almost 8p.m..My poor pancake knee is feeling it now....I'm ready to take a percoset ,,and a ambien and call it a night...I may wait a little while before doing so...got to watching a movie with Michael Douglas and Demi Moore ...Disclosure,,and right now it looks pretty interesting.

And tomorrow I plan on doing little or nothing and staying home.....so I can sleep in after the man in the house goes to work, so I can stay up a little later tonight...SIS...

First stop was PT ((patient torture))which as bad as I thought it was going to be ,,,it was'nt that bad....The bending of the knee to flex it is the worst...painnnnnnnn,,,,,,or maybe because I took two percosets before I started.....and it dulled the pain..not that I didn't feel it.........they say my knee is almost at 90 flex....and that has been since Monday....so just maybe I will make it thru this therapy as they want me to..

After all this time of using my cane to walk around the stores ,,,I was like a baby taking its first steps when I realized I could actually walk behind and use a shopping cart..as long as I used it to lean on...whoopee......I dont feel as helpless now..except by the time i got home my poor pancake knee was ready to be put to bed,,I hurridly threw on a pot of chili for supper..ran out and fed all my animals...cleaned the kitchen up and headed for the couch where I am at now...and then they struck....well actually they were here last night ..they just multiplied by the hundreds tonight....the seven year old told me the other night that there was flying spiders...well...they arent spiders..they are the dratted ladybugs.and I would rather have flying lady bugs then flying spiders.yuk. an overhead light attracts them like a magnet...so I'm sitting here in near darkness except for a small light on a nearby stand and the tv screen flickering on and off...

I just hit the remote to see how much time is on the movie and I realized it is on til midnite...well.. thats just great..my two hour movie just turned into a three hour movie...so I am going to hold off taking my pills...

OK..another hour to go before my movie goes off....so I am outta here....as for the ladybugs..go shoo...get outta here....fly away home...

4 weeks...unbelievable

Hye hey hey,,,,,,cant beleive that it has been a whopping 4 weeks since this god forsaken surgery.....Now...yesterday was my first outpatient day of PT...another glorious hour of enduring pain while they wrench,,twist, probe,prod and do everything but tear your knee back out of its original socket....and they call this therapy.....well...the whole meaning of PT just went to hell......
To me,,,PT is in reality patient torture..what else could pt stand for....its physical and its therapy but its patient torture in the worst form...I just grit my teeth and think ,,,well..how much more can you manage to put me thru in one hour,,they do their damnest....to work everything in they can think of....soon its time to leave the torture chamber...a little relief for at least 32 hours...3 times a week I'm to enter this chamber of horror with all its little machines..I scour the room thinking ..which agonizing machine are they going to put me on next....then at the end ..before you leave ..they hook you up to this thing that sends little shock waves thru you....In my version it is little like an electric fence..or maybe I watch too many horror shows and keep waiting for that jolt that will end up throwing you off the table..I just hope the machine doesn't go haywire while I am hooked up to it and give me a never ending jolt..yikes......I know or at least I hope I can say in 4-5 weeks it was worth it to have the pt but at this stage I CAN'T SEE IT..DEFINITELY NOT..
My pancake knee still looks like a pancake..I guess,,It looks a little rough after surviving pt,,,,
I took the little one home today... a beautiful day...Right around 70.We were headed east to the town of Athens but somehow ended up going west to the town of Parkersburg....where I had promised him a toy for him to pick out when we went to town....He chose three $3.00 toys at Walmart...or he could have had a $10.00 one..I guess getting three toys was better then getting one big one...and of all toys..these little things that were about 5 inches long and resembled a skateboard with little stickers to put on them....He probably had them lost as soon as the cardboard was peeled away....It was just too pretty to stay inside all day and they say after Thursday our Indian summer days are gone...the weekend is suppose to be cold and wet....for football playoffs....ok..
I need to jump off here and finish taking some pills....and get ready for bed....I now walk around the stores except Walmart when i am getting groceries..then i latch on to one of those little motorized carts....and then by the time I get home my leg is itching ,,burning and hurting...my back even hurts..I think I may call it a night....goodnight alllllllllllllll.

I've never done this before,,experimental

I want to see if i can download a video...never done it before.....

This was a video camera i found that had these little short videos shot on it...I wanted to see if i could upload one...sis,,show carrie her cousins and my piggy.....

pancakes little helpers

It is without a doubt the ugliest thing I have seen....sitting on the floor alongside where my makeshift bed is for the time being...It looks like some sea creature, preferably an eel or something close....This little contraption was sent home with me from the hospital...Its name is ICEMAN....a cooler like thing with a motor that you fill with crushed ice..then pour water over , plug it in...put the eel looking thing across your knee cap,has a Velcro strap to hold it tight and there you go..No more running to the freezer every couple hours for an ice pack....I don't have crushed ice for mine so I put 4 bottles of frozen water in it covered with water and hot dog ,,instant ice pack....you always keep an extra 4 bottles in the freezer to switch out when you start it up again..


And then theres that little bottle sitting on top called pain relief..alias percoset...that goes along with the ice pack...

My home nurse just left a half hour ago and released me from home health care...so now I am out the door to PT Monday.

ok..short little post..got to go get a few things done....later...
ps...in case you have forgotton ,,,pancake is my knee..

the heat is on

Ahhhhhhhhhhh......I feel the heat,,,,I smell the scent of wood being burnt,the wood stove has been fired up...It won't be for long as the temps are suppose to be in the 60's by Tuesday...but for now...the house is damp and a little heat is needed to get the chill out of it..It manages to drift upstairs thru the vents and I can turn the thermostat down on the upper floor as I can feel the heat rising .....
I had a restless night sleeping last night...I had a ice pack on my knee and sometime in the middle of the night I awoke chilled to the bone...Not wanting to get up I cowered under my afghan and debated on turning off my little electric ice box...Tonight I will elect not to use it as it is going to be even colder...I managed to lie awake,,in what seemed an endless hour, as I listened to the grandfather clock ticking and chiming on each quarter of the hour....Finally I decided at 5;30 I had squirmed and wiggled enough so I crawled out from under neath my cover to a chilling room as I had turned down the thermostat down last night and forgot to turn it back up.
I had my breakfast fixed by the man in the house as he doesn't miss a breakfast..he insists that you have to start out the day with a good breakfast.......Only thing is he gets two eggs, toast ,bacon sausage and a bowl of cereal..and my breakfast consist of a meager slice of bacon cut in two which is two pieces to him but in reality one slice..and I always have a piece of toast ..I was getting an egg, but the past couple of mornings I have declined the egg........my choice..so my breakfast got skimpier.Oh well...All this laying around and I don't need to be gorging myself anyways.At my age I can gain weight too easily.Since the surgery I have managed to lose around 13 lb. and I'd like to continue that direction and strive to lose around 15 more...Doesn't seem like much til you try to shed it....And even worse its going into the holiday season,,which I'd like to get out into a store and pick up a few things for the grandbabies..the four year old wants a baby alive boy doll....She has a room full of doll babies but she always sees another she wants..so maybe in a couple weeks I will attempt to start picking up a few gifts at a time.maybe..Gift cards might be a bigger part of Christmas if shopping is limited..In this day and time I guess everyone would rather have cash and it seems like its a lot easier then trying to pick out gifts..that they don't or wont like anyways...
I do remember last night having my pickle and peanut butter and this time I do remember eating it.two pickles at that...How's that for progress after the night before....
We have the 7 year old here and he has a bug of some sorts..the dr..said a strain of flu..when asked about swine flu ,,he said the swine flu is just a more severe form of the regular flu...so now if some doctors are saying that it is no big deal ,,then what is all the fuss about how bad the swine flu is....I ..along with many others I have talked to cannot figure it out...Doctors orders are to keep them in the house ..not to be outdoors..no milk or pop and drink plenty of juices and water...so I made him a bed on the opposite end of this big ol wrap around couch and I am on the other..This couch must be 15 or 16 foot long but it sure takes up my whole living room...This one end has been my command post since I have had surgery...I hate furniture you cant move and this would definitely be considered one of those pieces...As far as I am concerned I would like to have wheels on EVERYTHING,,,,so I can move it when I want...
Well...it is daylight...dreary dark day...suppose to be rain mixed with snow..in the 30's....Our WV mountaineers from Morgantown play their rival college...Marshall University out of Huntington...They say it should be a good game starting at 3;30 although it is suppose to be cold...
My nurse that was coming into the home and monitoring my blood work is suppose to come today to release me from their care to start outpatient PT Monday.I can't believe that it will be 4 weeks Tuesday ,,that will be almost a month....Unbelievable that I have that much time behind me..I called my brother last night and he had a knee replacement two years ago...He said after his 6 weeks of Pt was over that he never really had any more problems and he has no pain at all now unless he does something to turn it the wrong way....and the best part is,,,,he said he never did have to do any more exercises but I guess everyone is different as to how their knee mends.....have to just wait and see...I can really get around a lot better as each day goes by...I mostly use my cane now if I feel unsteady or in the morning when I get up....or after I do my exercises...when my leg feels a little weak...I went to town with the man in the house yesterday and he took his diesel truck with no side step to get into it..So I had a milk crate I had to step up on to get in..but man oh man ..the truck seat was perfect for the amount of bend I have in my knee or maybe its just getting a little easier with the more PT I do....The Pt told me that my extension is almost zero and when I started pt my flex was 63 and its almost up to 80 now...I'm hoping that sounds good to my outpatient PT because they want you to get your flex to 110 but 120 is really the top number.
ok...I took a pill and I need to sit and exercise my knee...so I'm outta here for the time being.............later........

the last thing i remember

was talking to the la cajun sister and her saying,,now be sure and take you a sleeping pill..right now ,,while i am talking to you....so naturally like a good patient that i can be (sometimes) I followed orders and downed that pill...remembering the last thing I said to her was that I had to fill up my ice man((((little electric ice pack they sent home with you from the hospital,,which is really neat,,its like an electric ice pack)))..
By this time I staggered to the kitchen within a matter of the next 10 minutes ,,,,switched out frozen bottles for my ice man...and spied the big dill pickles in the frig...ahhhh...I thought ,,pickle slices topped with peanut butter,,yum ,,yum..
fixed a plate ,,toddled back to the living room where my makeshift bedroom is set up for the time being while i am crippling around....easy access to kitchen and bathroom from here..centralized location...
And that is my last recollection of last night...At some point in the middle of the night the man in the house entered the room...and i can remember him saying ''How can you sleep with this overhead light on...???Well...i guess if that sleeping pill hadn't have caught up with me so fast ,,i would have turned off the light....Now,,its morning,,I am awake,,,I turn on the little bedside light and see a empty plate and a butter knife...I carry it to the kitchen.....the sad part is ...I don't remember eating pickle and peanut butter...for all I know the little night fairies could have played a trick on me,,,,,when i went to the kitchen for a shot of coffee,,,I did see the peanut butter jar sitting on the counter........so with no recollection whatsoever,,i must have eaten pickle slices with peanut butter....that ticks me off...I ate a food I like and didn't get the pleasure of tasting it...ok...no more sleeping pills for me til I'm ready for the night to end...one other thing,,,before this surgery ,,I had these sleeping pills..actually they are about a 3 year old perscripton that I had earlier and never worked before...Don't know whether its a combination of taking them with these pain pills or what but everything sure has changed since I have had this surgery..They seem to be working different now..ok..I'm up..early post...and I'll be baccccccccck,,,,

fall is here

scenes of fall...................

ROADSIDE COLORS

A COUNTRY PIC PRETTY COLORED TREES

It's here.....we have slowly made the change from those warm

days to the slightly chilly ones that call for long sleeves and maybe a sweater....tonight..the temps are suppose to dip

into the 40's....tomorrow rain is forecast.

On a Sunday drive two days ago we wandered down country

roads we had never ventured onto knowing all roads come out somewhere...you just have to figure out which way is the way home...Anyways,,,I tried to take pics out my dirty windshield...and some did come out pretty good...the trees at their peak were all golden yellow,,orange , brown and green...as if some one magically took their paint brush and painted from the ground to the tops of the trees....The sun shining on the vivid bright colors made them even more pleasant to look at.

After tomorrow they should be even more colorful and then they will all be gone.....leaving behind all the pine trees with bright green branches to brave the winter on their own....

Almost home..we stopped at a little roadside stand that sells veggies all summer long....I was wanting a tomato but peppers. pumpkins and the fall veggies are on the racks now...What is so unusual about this little stand is that it sits along side the main road...in front of a little farm house....and no one mans this stand...It is purely a stand for the honest people to stop at...

Prices are labeled above everything and there is a little bucket where you drop your money into....no cameras ..no person anywhere in sight......just buy,,,deposit your money and you

are on your way...

Soon we were at the crossroads to our house...and I am soon to be back in the house snuggled up on my cozy little couch..next time.....

3 weeks but who's counting

THREE WEEKS BEHIND ME

MY PANCAKE KNEE

I AM,,,,It has been a long , drawn out,nasty,hurting,itching

burning,no relief in sight,whining, bitching,slow,agonizing three

weeks with lots more ahead...Aren't I the lucky one..Oh well..I keep telling myself ,,it could be worse...I'm just feeling a wee bit sorry for myself..no I take that back,,I'm feeling a whole hell of a lot more sorry for myself..You see,,,I hate being confined...to a bed,,a house,,and on top of that limited to what you can do ...which is not much at all.....for me....My poor pancake leg...Will you ever be halfway back to normal...maybe,sometime

in the near future..or so i hope.....right now...my poor pancake

knee needs to get some rest...zz--z---z--later

a beautiful fall day........

I HAVE TWO GOOD REASONS TO WATCH THE BALL GAMES..THE FIRST IS MY GRAND-DAUGHTER HANNAH....ON THE RIGHT.

Sunday morning, a crisp cool day is in store...with temps not rising above 60......I had to make a decision on whether I wanted to ride about 30 mile down the road to the last of the little ones ball games for the season...til playoffs start or whether i wanted to stay under my warm toasty blanket and get even more lazier then what i am now.... So, after much thinking about it ,,i elected to go.....

THE SECOND IS PETEY..TURNED AROUND ,,WAITING TO GO IN.
NUMBER 6......THAT'S OUR BOY......AREN'T THEY CUTE.....

Getting into the vehicle and getting comfy is the hardest part,,After much squirming on a previous trip I finally had to sit on a cushion to put my foot at a better angle..It manages to help for a couple hours then you finally have to go for the agony of defeat and find a bed to stretch your leg out on......Needless to say I made it thru the ball game with no problem,

a winning game at that...so this little team is in second place right now,,till playoffs...................actually for me to watch the game is hard..

I don't know why they elect to put such old looking cheer outfits on these girls........all the other teams have the little flared outfits..
my granddaughter Hannah....

I try to sit up front ..close down where the gr-daughter is a cheerleader..

then to still be able to see when the boy goes out to play...then there is the four year old...I always have a treat bag for her and we have 4-5 more little ones we have to share with....always the same little ones of the parents we sit with..then I take wipe off books to amuse mine but they all try to write on the same book...wipe off books...another neat invention for the smaller age....anyways...by the time the game is over I really don't know whether i got to watch any or not...oh well...I just love being around the wee ones....

MY BABY GIRL...............HALEY

OK.games over...We are headed home...We see a sign that says Pumpkin patch and tell the boy we will stop and let him get a pumpkin or two...The day is gorgeous...The trees are almost at their peak of turning...Another few more days and they will be there...I tried to take pics as we were driving along...some did alright..some didn't......The weather was just right sitting in the sun....a long sleeve shirt day.Only thing I hate is,,,,I know winter is not far behind,,,,,

As soon as my sagging butt got home,,,I crossed into the twilight zone,,took my clothes off and put on some pj's and headed for the couch.

between dozing and lying still ,i never got up til after dark...its amazing ..how DOING NOTHING can tire you out..

Its Monday morning ,,the PT has already come and gone and I'm ready for another nap,,,,whew ,,Ive never been so ragged out in my life..Hope how soon all this is behind me..tomorrow will be three weeks the surgery nightmare will be behind me...I've done made up my mind that when I go back to the doctor and when he does the x-ray to see if everything is lined up alright,,,it had dang better be,,cause I'm not going back for a corrective surgery ....

Ok..it almost noon...already....I am going to lie back for a while...a gloomy day outside ..cold ,,nippy and suppose to rain....catch you later.

pancake knee

Today was a fun filled day and a tiring one by the time 6p.m.got here.

My son called and said he was bringing the gr-babies down and they are my pride and joy...won't ever say they are a problem..because they are not in any way....They arrived a little after noon.And of course at Grand-ma's house you always have to be on top to have something for them to do..The 4 year old and I played with the single doll baby that i could find..dressing and undressing her ,,then we had to dress any other toy from elmo to little bear plus anything else we could get an outfit on...so needless to say ..any-thing that had arms and legs got an outfit...my living room is nothing but an array of toys now ...some were picked up but most are still in there own little huddle...at this point they are going to stay there til I muster up enough energy to pick them up..

Now,,,the four year old casually looks at my knee and says ,"Can I feel it?

Sure I said....One quick swipe across with her hand and she looks at me and says ...Grand-ma ,,your knee looks like a pancake....I said ...a pancake....no....She said uhhuh...And I guess the squiggly line running down it looked like the syrup....so.now I have a pancake knee...............Its amazing..how these little ones look at things in their own way..

My son is a die hard WV mountaineer fan so he watched their run away game today which I hope the brother in law in la..rooting for LSU tonight has a little more action in his game..right now,,,Florida is giving them a run for it...

Right about time the game went off ..around 4ish....the electric for no blooming reason at all went out...the girls were hungry and we were going to have pizza but no oven or microwave to cook in any way..so we ate summer sausage and ice cream...right before they were getting ready to leave the electric came back on so we threw on a pizza and they left with pizza and their get away bags....

I had given them Ty beanie babies and the 7 year old was busy putting them on her web site on the computer all afternoon...while I played with the four year old....

Upon leaving I have to help gather up their goodies....the little one likes cotton candy,,tootsie rolls,Cheetos's,,little thin chocolate cookies,jerky and always manages to talk me into letting her take a toy home....

The older one gets jerky,,,Doritos, pretzels,smarties, p-nut butter buddy bars...(me Too). choc..granola bars,,and iced choc and white snack cakes.

She is a picky eater so she takes her lunch to school and I usually give her enough to take in her lunch..

What else are gr-ma's for ...to spoil them more then what they are and send them home...and with that I am outta here....I'm ready for a long sit down--lay down break....nite all.

I'm wondering what my knee will look like the next time..mmm pancake knee.....who would have thought that but my precious 4 year old.

went to the doctor and the doctor said

you're two weeks out of that hospital bed.

The knee looks good where it was stitched and sewn

And Pt therapy ,you do most on your own.

He wants me to start PT outpatient as soon as i can get

Behind the wheel of my ford.....alias my corvette.

I return in a month ,,an x-ray he will take

To see if everything is intact and in place.

Went to the first appt..an ecchocardigram they did,

Wasn't really painful,,but i squirmed like a kid.

Couldn't quite get my leg in a comfy spot

So had to grin and bear it...like it or not.

After that we left ..went to Sam's and shopped,

An hour we had til our next appointment stop.

The first time I have ever been wheeled around the store

Now if that doesn't make you feel like a vegetable for sure.

It's amazing how you take the things in life for real

Until you lose what you have,it seems like no big deal.

Having to rely on someone to help you all the time

Would not be an ideal life of mine.

The leg doctor's office was full and packed

And these were new patients,not ones returning back.

I cant believe how many knees and hips are replaced

Why,I can only think, the weak kneed rule the race.

And speaking of knees ,,the bandage was removed by me

While sitting in the waiting room,my name called soon to be.

To my amazement the knee was clean and the stitches in a row

Down across the top of the knee,about 8 inches or so.

Now, here's a pic of the bandage being off the knee

Its really not as bad as I thought that it would be....

I do believe in all honestly my doctors cut was great

It was just the method of the way the ortho floor medicates.

Now whose to blame for the way the meds are passed out

I think they need to reevaluate and turn some things about.

If this is a major surgery as to us they did explain

Then why didn't the meds they use not control the pain.

Alas,,its over and I can only think of moving ahead,

Theres no use looking backwards,its over ..enough said...

Improvising

Ok...another object that is my extra hand.......as you can see it is one of the older baby walkers...bless the poor little baby...he hasn't been here since i have had surgery but he didn't like his walker anyway..by the time he gets back,,he will probably be toddling everywhere on his own..I love to watch the first steps...anyways,,,i scarfed up his walker for my carrier...

It is rather hard to carry a glass ,,dish , etc. when you are trying to maneuver a walker but this works great..the extending bar on the walker lets me push or pull it....I used it within the last 2o minutes to carry my ice for my iceman and a bowl of chicken noodle soup...for me.I got a hungry spell.....anyways....at this stage you have to make any improvisations you can to make it easier....to get around...

Tomorrow is the first visit back to my doctor...I just hope everything looks alright...All I see is a dried up bloody mess.

I spoke to one of the patients that had her leg done the same day as mine and she is doing about the same as me with PT and all...Her leg hurts about the same as mine ..and we expect that...Major Surgery is what everyone calls this..well...at this point we are tending to believe it..Like she said we just never grasped what an overtaking this would be..The detailing of explaining all of this beforehand should have been a little more graphic ,,,she used the word misleading....We are glad we are going into two weeks behind us instead of two ahead of us.We shall continue to talk to each other throughout the next year or so to see how each is progressing on a weekly basis..Its good to have someone to talk to to see if our symptoms are the same or if something strange is beginning to happen....Like she said,,,there is no way you can get through this without the doctor writing a new prescription when you need it..Since this is a narcotic ,,it cant be renewed ,,has to be a new written prescription..My friend didn't know this,,,and called the office expecting her meds to be called in to her local drug store...soon realizing after the office had already closed that she couldn't get a refill without picking up the written prescription first...so she said she said she spent an agonizing evening in pure pain....heat or cold ..nothing helped...I told her to watch her pills and just make sure she had enough to not run out over the weekend or the other alternative would be to go to the ER. if she did...Pills are monitored more closely now....As for me,,I try to not take them til i need them..If I sleep 3 or more hours past the time i last took them,,,that's ok.I would rather try stretching my pills as I hate to take pills anyways..I did learn not to leave home without them which I learned from doing just that..

Went to town and thought I would be back before my pills wore off..well..2 hours stretched to 7 hours and this was the second day I was home...so I am making sure I have extra pills with me on this trip to town tomorrow....JUST IN CASE..as I have two office calls before noon..

Right now I will hop off of here,,try to get some sleep as I don't know how this trip to town will be....I know it will be tiring as I am right now..I will update again tomorrow on doctors visit...goodnight all..

a blanket of warmth

I have a little blanket that always lies with me..
It often gives me comfort whenever the need may be.
It covers me and takes away the cold that chills my bone,
I like my little blanket , her home is my own.
Because you see,,this blanket is really a afghan crocheted with love
From Doris who left this world to unknown realms above.
Doris loved to cook,sew, make quilts and afghans galore,
I only wish I had taken one or two more...
The one I chose is colorful,white with colors through
And when the days are gloomy..the colors cheer me too.
I think about all the time with needles in her hand..

Each weaving back and forth became a colorful strand.

My little warm blanket covers me from head to toe,

I can't help but think of Doris each time I draw it close.

I think of how she may be gone but would be pleased to know,

How her lovely little afghan gives me comfort so.

Occasionally a tear may fall when I think of one so dear,

That is no longer with us but yet she lingers near..

She's in my blanket,,in my pics ,inside my house and out,

Theres not one place that I can see that Doris is'nt about.

I call my blanket ,,my Doris blanket ,by her hands it was made,

It covers me..It warms me,and its like she is with me thru the day.

Thank you Doris , for making these beautiful blankets...for which i truly love....They are a source of comfort crocheted with hands of love...

14 days behind me

well....ones too dark and the other too light...but basically this is the way my leg looks two weeks out.................................................................

well...I can recall too vividly of what i was doing at this precise time two weeks ago...waiting in a Little teeny white hospital room getting ready to be hooked up to iv's and routine blood work being done for(((((puke))))) surgery and the spare hand talking to my la sis....Its funny how time crawls when you dont want it too and goes fast when you dont want it too..as soon as said phone was whisked away from me....i think i must have been taken to the bates motel...or their psycho ward...from going to the chopping block and returning to a white bedroom was where my journey began....Everything appeared to go as i assumed was normal...But dont ask me what normal is suppose to be in a hospital..whatever the nurses want it to be as they are in control of the meds...I do remember that first night of surgery at somewheres around 9 p.m. or after..memory foggy on time.....that i called my la sis ..squalling and saying "I thought you said this didnt hurt...well mine sure did....She was livid and from there on out I was probably the orthopedic floor nightmare for that week,,til my release....I still think as soon as they got my wheelchair on the ground floor as i was leaving i could see all the fireworks going off on that floor now that they got their worst patient OUT OF THERE.Day 2 and day 3 seemed to get a little better as i kept repeating i did not want another night like day 1....

between my la (nurse) sister calling them all the time about my meds and anything else they weren't doing right..and my EX..i have to capitalize that one...sister in law spending the next nite to make sure i got that extra push which was extra pain allowed in between the 4 hour percoset if you so needed it..the only problem was if you slept through that time allowance you missed it..so she made sure i was awake and made them give it to me in between the pills...which is the way it was suppose to be..whether i was alert enough to ask for it or not..i got it...PT wasnt too happy...I couldnt stand up on the floor to walk..couldnt keep my eyes open for all the drugs the EX was making sure i was getting..Actually if i had had a little bit more of controlled pain i wouldnt have been seen or heard out of......oh well....i'm just glad that is all behind me..i go back to the knee doctor tomorrow and hope the surgical site looks alright..the nurse yesterday said it looks a lot brownish but maybe that is the way its suppose to be doing....well..lets hope so..dont want this knee re-opened,,,,

and thank goodness the left one is suppose to be alright...

Anyways ,,just getting home from the hospital was controlled pain for me..noone checking on you..up when you want...pills every 4 hrs.when you felt like it....A few obstacles you had to get cleared at first ...and the worst one of all was ((((gross as this may sound))))was getting the back end to work back in a routine.....pain there til you got it back into working right....ol med..called mag=citrus had to do its death defying act on this one....

All in all..I feel a lot better since i've gotten home..I still get winded at times...and fatigue will not allow you to stand no more then what you can..The nurse and PT told me to just get up and do what i had to do then lay back down....so now i try to do a lot of sit down work.My little pink lady..my walker treks around with me and i have a pouch for my phone and glasses , another mesh bag to carry things from one spot to the other hangs on the opposite side so im ready to rock and roll.......I have a cane and crutches if i so need them for a step -down...

Anyhow...I got out of the hospital on Saturday following my surgery...groggy and sleepy ..par to the procedures of what i had done..

No appetite you had...just thirst....so it took me 3- 4 days of munching crackers with my pills and that was enough for me...

ahhhh...then the appetite started to return....now my cook has me 1 egg,,i slice of bacon , 1 toast and coffee for breakfast...its a morning ritual..hey i cant complain...the he in the house has taken over about everything...I feel bad at times....and I try not to ask him to do too much.He has all the outside work to do before winter gets here...firewood...fixing everything that needs to be done before it gets too cold..has to feed my animals...winterize the pool....plus he alternates between trying to paint a whole house and repair whatever needs to be repaired to get it ready to rent....so i try to do what i can for myself....he has a lot to do..

Yes..Now that i am home ,,i try not to think about whats behind me....I'm just hoping said dr. visit goes alright tomorrow and everything is still aligned up with the surgical knee....hey im two weeks out....and i know its going to be a long drawn out process but ive never sat this long at any given time and at times the rest part feels good....

Not that i dont have pain...If i go past my 4 hours depending on what i am doing then ive overworked my leg and id better grab a pain pill..sometimes it takes its own notion to want to burn,itch or whatever to keep me alert.ahh,,,the sad part is...my knee controls me now...what it wants it gets.....and that will probably be the way it will be the rest of my life.

PT is the most important part for knee therapy now...being able to work my knee properly will be weeks down the road...so now i am just content to be home ..to regulate my own pain...and i know with each slow passing day that my knee will have to be getting better....i'm waiting.What choices do i have...I am at my knees beck and call....
"and it calling me now...............later guys................

no more wondering??????????

this is the before picture ,,,before i had surgery...............

the next one are shadows of the after ...Is there really any difference??danged if i knowI guess when all the swelling goes down they may match a little more....maybe not.

thirteen days ago was a wondering about my journey into the other world of bionic knee ,,surgery,,,what to be and what to come...

one word describes it all....IT SUCKED...and still does...the only thing i can say is at least it is behind me but not all the pain that came with it...thank goodness ...percoset seems to be my best friend right now along with my little flowered pink walker that gets me around.At first i tried to stretch my meds out so i would be taking fewer and fewer and from two to one but that doesn't seem to work at this point...cause when Mrs.Knee wants to hurt..she does...and if i have waited too long to give her a hit of pain killer then it takes me that much longer to get settled down also,so I'll keep feeding her for the time being....I have learnt thru this little process....no more hurrying doing anything.....at all...you'd better start a little bit earlier to get where you are going cause timing is your worst enemy at this stage...so far ,it is working.....

The nurse and PT have already been here for the morning and gone..one just draws blood to monitor my coumadin and the other gets paid for watching me exercise...thats ok....They check vitals .etc...while they are here.....and answer the few questions i may have...One in particular was ..why did the back of my legs and knee hurt so bad yesterday..of which after finding i was up on them for too long of times was the answer...they told me to get up..do what i had to do then lie back down..everything has its drawbacks and overextending my time up would be one of them...and be too much on my knee...like with exercising....not over two sets a day...cause then you can overexercise the leg.....

gee..so may things to have to watch for..then this medicine at this time ..this one at that time....this one with food...this one not...so needless to say,,i keep a giant notebook and pencil close by.....and sometimes i have to make that la phone call to see just what i have done....or didn't do..

Thank God ,,there is a nurse in the family,,or at least she says she is...no way could i be a nurse..my brain couldn't survive remembering all those vital things you have to know....

Thanks ever so much for being here with me thru surgery..hospital stay, home recovery and now rehab sis....I really couldn't have done it without your knowledge of what was to be done....or what was going to happen as you went thru it first..I'm glad you went into nursing instead of venturing...It paid off.....Again....to say thank you is not enough....love you a lot.......

and this is the best pic i could find of us....me following in your footsteps...heyyyyyyy.dont complain....at least you are the pretty pink one....

24 hours from now

I'm wondering what the next night will bring...great pain with no end in sight from having this piece of metal put in my leg.a long sleepless night writhing in pain from this foreign object implanted in my body......I can see the purple and black now surrounding my leg as i bruise easily and this will actually be the first major surgery i will have had although i have had my throat cut from one side to to the other when they did my thryoid surgery and i have had both knees operated on with ligaments sewn back together and cartilages taken out but i think this will be the worstest (ha..no such word) one of all....unless i muster up nerves of steel overnight to take the brunt of most of the pain....maybe i can sleep thru most of the next three days and wake up with no pain.I tried to accomplish most of what i wanted to get done in case i am hindered for a week or so .ok........short post ....i am outta here to pack a few more things for the journey to the new leg.............part....owww..it hurts already.

so much to do..too little time

the big day will soon be here..today i went for pre-ops at the hospital to get me ready for that big day next Tuesday...I am in no way looking forward to this surgery..i don't see why my doctor thinks i need surgery...don't these legs look anywhere near perfect..shapely....guess not.....I guess if i were in severe pain or any kind of in depth pain i would be more intent on having this done...but the way i see it ,,i am going to be in more pain after surgery then before and it seems to me it ought to be the opposite...anyways...the date is next Tuesday..the 22nd...and i have so much i want to get done before then...we are in the process of trying to get a house in condition to rent...and i am not in any way much help now..let alone after the surgery...i just have to much i want to do to be hindered by not being able to do anything of great depth for at least 6 months..oh well..too late to turn back now...

maybe i can take this laptop to the hospital and do some catching up on my posts..we'll see....

i thought i could have the femoral block or the pump like the Louisiana sis but i guess they don't do either one anymore..its either pills or shots..just want i wanted to hear...that's just hunky dory..ok....just an update on where my surgery is at....now i am off to the kitchen to find something to eat......I've worked up an appetite just thinking about surgery....good bye.

why would i go

after tonite,,,why would i.......

and you ask me..."why dont we go on a cruise" well tell Miss Peggy I would like to BUT..........if it wasnt for the ???????????.

I would have... and my mind runs wild when it gets over water....

ahh,,,the boat ,,the boat
For one thing,I went on a mini cruise tonite...we boarded our boat at the hockingport docking site....i was trying my best to stay steady as i hiked one leg over the dock onto the boat and looked back to see if the other one was following..yep..two legs..still attached....I'm carrying my life jacket in one hand,,a sweater for the cool breeze from the water and a pair of sweats in case the temps drop fast...as it is always a little more nippier in or near water....I scanned my surroundings as we got on...I could see a yacht docked on the other side of the little river, river boats all decked out with palm trees and bright lights, people sitting in chairs fishing from the banks

cruising the river..

we cruised on down our little river til we crossed under the bridge that directed us into the mighty ohio .....the banks were ten times as far apart as the little river we were on....the pilot..(man in the house ) piloted the cruise ship we were on down the mighty ohio and opened the throttle up full force ,,the wind blowing our hair among the roar of our little engine..soon when we got tired of cruising down the river ,,the pilot pulled the little boat over to the side and proceeded to fish for whatever would have the misfortune of jumping on his hook...fishing is not one of my favorite things to do but when asked to go...i grabbed my camera and thought why not..

as i sat in our little boat ,,,i would gaze out of the corner of my eyes watching in case i would encounter a giant squid wrapping his tentacles around me or a menacing shark coming up to take a bite out of our water craft and visioning the little boat sinking to the bottom in all that water never to be seen again..with that thought i clutched my life jacket closer and thought the man in the house will have to pry my locked fingers off of this one to get it away from me...(I've got to quit watching all those movies

that end up with the main characters being ate because in this scenario I'm the main character....) with that thought I gazed around and my wandering imagination saw a crocodile .

...alias a big log floating on the river

...a different looking bird

sitting on the side waiting to take off in flight and swoop down upon us..ahh but he took off and flew the opposite way.but wait theres a snake sticking its shiny green head out of the water waiting for the chance to spring upon some unsuspecting prey....but wait...thats not a snake ,,,thats a pop bottle..my eyes are deceiving me again.....alas my camera helped me pass the time again,,..the moon was shining over the water and casting a shadow as far down as the eye could see and a picture was in tow...i would have been absolutely bored on this little cruise if not for my little buddy in my pocket...when bored,,take pictures...

on the west va. side of the river among the trees and wooded hills you could see houses and farms dotting the river..on the ohio side at the point we were at was highway and rock cliffs that the man in the house worked on years back,logs and other objects floating on the river..,OK.. my cruise is almost over and we want to get off the water before dark.and the other cruise liners (((barges)))) happen up the deep waters..the waves they create could toss and sink a smaller vessel like ours if we would wander into their territory....things look more sinister in the dark especially in water..and im sure my eyes could really imagine things..and to top it off ,,i have never sat so still in my life...and i sure dont want to piss the man in the house off at this point...i can see him tossing my fat butt of this little cruise ship we are on and noone knowing where i went or what happened to me..happens all the time doesnt it..or trying to load our little ship and getting caught underneath it..all kinds of thoughts race thru your mind..who can you trust these days....is the person in the house with you that you thought you knew for over 15 years coming out of the closet...has he had enough of me...have i ticked him off...think I will just sit on my cruise ,,take pictures and KEEP MY LIP SHUT....so my lip was zipped on this trip ..i even talked nice on this trip...i am not in command or have any control on this ride...this one hour trip was a half day outing it seemed..I WANNA GO HOME AT THIS POINT..

im back home and im safe...whew....i'm dry ,,,i dont smell..so i must have done alright.....that was my mini cruise...

now ask me,,,if i want to take a major cruise on the mighty atlantic or pacific ...sharks..whales..octopus,and all those other creatures in that deep dark lurking water..well...miss peggy .........I DON'T THINK SO...i dont like water and all those creatures in it...and i think i am going to skip my shower tonight...ive seen enough water.............later............