remembering you on your birthday.......

The months have slowly or quickly at times moved on...I have been so involved with outside projects that needed to be done before winter now that Bob is not here and I am left to see that they get done..

Today would have been my big guys birthday...never thought he wouldnt be here to celebrate it....It disgusts me when I think of him not being here as he would have only been 55 today...way too young to leave this world...He had so many things lined up that he was going to start or finish..Now..everything is left undone and I'm slowly beginning to get everything back in order...water,,driveway..wood stove are all ready and done..only thing left is the itty bitty wet spots on my water pipes..

I posted this post in memory of my Bob as today is his birthday..I hope hes singing with the angels and catching my mom up on everything...It is so heart breaking to know hes not ever going to be here again...I can still recall the last night he was here on earth...wanting me to hold his hand before he died....his hands were huge but gentle...my gentle giant...I can never forget the trials and tribulations we have gone through....mostly being here for each other............you were one of a kind..i cannot begin to sum up all you were and what you meant to me..I guess we took each other for granted knowing we were here for each other..............noone cared like you did..I will one day blog a little more detail of our togetherness..for right now........I can only say ,,,it will never be the same with him gone...........seems like ..you never realize until its too late how much someone or something means to you...I know what i've lost..

Happy Birthday Bob...I miss you so much..and think of you daily..........................loving you and having you in my life will leave a big void now that you are not here.......you were always here for me.........being alone sucks....